BUNDA

By. Melly Goeslaw

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Melody from Melly G, melody nan syahdu so nice , I felt my tears come to my face.. Mama..I miss you..Oh Mama your love to us never end till last minuts… You always cover me with your lovely feeling, with all attention and fully patiently, You always supporting me even i  always broked  the rulles and make you headache…I always noughty and make you angry,make your feeling so bad with my words, my attitude,my habit,my behavior,I always hurt you,but you always forgive me..and you still give me a lots of love. How much your love to me will never can be calculate with anything in the world.Will never can be changes with anything.. YOUR LOVE   so important for me.You always there when i need you.. and with your love you will make me so calm and relax.I see our photos album when we always together, you always smile and hugs me…When you bring me to paris and others country.. oh so lucky me have you as my mom.  Mama  where are you now.. i want you beside me right now and say i love you…. but you are there and you still supporting me to taking care of my son. Oh Mama how much i bother you….

Long time ago.. i feel that the ways you teach me is too strong on me, i feel is not fair and i get jelousy.. but now.. i understand.. you want me strong and be  indipendant girls and can fight in the hard lifes.You want me always stand on my feet without depending with someone or anything else.And until now..i still not give you any happiness yet. Just problem and something bad else.Oh My God, how bad am i as daughter.. and GOD,You give me really nice mother who fully of love .

Mama, Today is your Birthday.. your special day and i’m so shy, I can’t give you much things. I just can praying for your health, your success life, your love and luck into your life MAY ALLAH SWT ALWAYS BLESSING YOU. You are great mother for me and us ( your kids ) and you are also great grandmother for our kids. Really.. you are Miracle from  ALLAH SWT given to us..without you.. i will never be here and be right now..

Mama.. please forgive me all mistake what i done..i still can not make you happy yet and  still can not give you wish on me.  I hope i will never hurt you again.. and i  still need your support always to make me more strong than now..don’t leave me alone without your love.

MAMA  I LOVE YOU SO MUCH… AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY

ibu kita Kartini, putri sejati
putri Indonesia, harum namanya

ibu kita Kartini, pendekar bangsa
pendekar kaumnya untuk merdeka

wahai ibu kita Kartini
putri yang mulia
sungguh besar cita-citanya
bagi Indonesia

Masih Ingat kah engkau akan lagu ini..? masih hafalkah engkau dengan lagu ini.. waduh jujur aja deh.. aku dah nggak iling blass… inget tglnya aja dah lupa boro2 lagunya.. balik ke SD lagi yuk..

Tak terasa hari ini hari bersejarah bagi kaum hawa di Indoensia.. tanpa beliau mungkin kita masih berkutak kutik di dapur saja..nggak ngerti kono-kene, nggak ngerti tentang dunia luar.. taunya 3M Masak, Macak,Manak ( eh bener atau salah sich ..??? ). Tanpa beliau mungkin kita nggak akan pernah tau soal dunia politik, dunia laki-laki, dunia yang tak mungkin kita pikirkan sebelumnya..

Zaman RA.Kartini, semua serba aturan dan penuh tantangan.. kita tak bisa bebas bergerak dan leluasa bekerja. Kita harus tunduk kepada Orang tua kita, Suami dan saudara laki-laki.Kita harus patuh apa kata orang tua yang serba ini dan itu..RIBET deh…untung aku nggak lahir zaman itu deh..ngenes kalee yeee.. 

Aduh..Tahun semakin berganti, begitu juga gaya dan aturan pun selalu berganti mengiringin tiap langkah tahun yang berjalan..kini tak lagi banyak aturan yang mengikat kaum hawa untuk bekerja dan berberpikir… sekarang kita bisa bergerak,terbang bebas dan leluasa menjelajahi dunia luar yang pernah dalam angan kita sebelumnya..Sekarang kita bisa bekerja dan meraih cita-cita setinggi langit..( berapa meter yach..? ada yang tau nggak.,.??). Sekarang kita bisa belajar nggak hanya satu-dua bahasa aja.. ibaratnyan kita kaum hawa bisa merdeka…Tapi INGAK-INGAK… walau kita bisa terbang sebebas burung camar ( lho kok jadi Vina Panduwinata sich..) kita tetap nggak boleh melangkahi hak suami dan membantah apa kata Ortu..apalagi sampai ngelupain kodrat kita sebagai wanita.. yach kembali lagi 3M deh…kita tetap kudu menghormati ortu dan suami serta pasa saudara laki2 kita, kita tetap kudu patuh dan tunduk walau hati kita kadang berontak.

Janganlah setelah kita bisa bebas dan merdeka kita jadi lupa akan kodrat kita sebagai wanita dan melupakan segalanya.. terutama dalam segi keluarga.. janganlah itu sampai terjadi yach.. ( ceile sok filosofi banget deh gw..). Janganlah setelah kita meraih cita-cita kita jadi males berumah tangga karena takut kita nggak bisa berkreativitas lagi dan mendapatkan segala sesuatu yang kita mau.. Boleh lah kita beraktivitas walaupun kita berumah tangga.. toh masih banyak jalan untuk mendapatkan uang sendiri..seperti buka usaha kecil di dalam rumah( home industri) dengan begitu kita bisa menjadi wanita sejati.. ngejagain keluarga dan juga punya income sendiri.Bukan berarti kita harus bekerja di kantor dengan jabatan yang tinggi dan gaji yang gede tapi keluarga berantakan.. RA KARTINI nggak ngajarin kita seperti itu khan..?Beliau walau mengajari kita untuk beremansipasi dengan kaum Adam.. bukan maksud untuk menginjak mereka dan juga bukan maksud untuk mereka mudah mempermainkan kita.. tetaplah kita berdiri dan menjadi wanita yang mandiri tanpa harus selalu bergantung dengan kaum adam.. bolehlah sometimes kita bergantung kepada mereka karena mereka punya tanggung jawab terhadap kita…

Nach generasi muda… bagaimana dengan RA KARTINI era thn 2008..?????? 

All my dear friends,

As moslem lady we must be cover all part of the body, we not allowed to show up to others people which is not our muchrim just to our family related only. We not allowed to hanging out with man and manythings to do we must to keep distance. Why must like that..? Is was written in our Holy AL Qur’an and Hadist Muhammad SAW.

Let me share with my experinece, everytime i saw those people.. i just quite or sometimes i give bad comment to them because they are attitudes is not well. They just cover as the dress.  I saw many people who wearing jilbab they said we not allowed to shake the hand with the man and hugging around.. but what i saw.. front of my eyes.. the hugging each others in the mall, and one time i saw it that they seat together in one chair ( pangku ), Massyaallah.. is really make me shame with this. Im not wonder if so many people ( others relagion ) just laughing to see  our people do like this. This also happen which lady use all black dress to cover all the body,( all black and only eyes left ) but they attitude is so bad. One of them is near with my house in Surabaya, and She get pregnant before married and the guy is just running away.. Astaghfirulahh, Really make me shame.. is really embrassing. How come the cover all like this so tight but can be make love without married.. and get pregnant. astaghfirulahh, really so bad.So what does mean the cover..? is just dress ?? just mask ? just to show up that we are moslem..? but they not more better than kupu2malam.  So what does mean???

Here also, even in arabic country, when im doing my duty as reception and i have evening or night shift, i saw many lady ( i cant mention the nationality ) they are just prostitud ( sorry about my bad  words ) they wearing that kabaya ( name of  the black dress in here ), they come inside the hotel and changes in the rest room. and the they start with their job. So what does mean again…?is just dress only.. and where is our hard should be cover ..? Astaghfirullah….

Okay.. is humanian.. we can not judges them as we said.. only ALLAH SWT who knows which is better and good.  Only ALLAH SWT the one who created everthing in this world.. ALLAH SWT knows better than us..

Now is happen on me..starting last holy Ramadhan i wearing jilbab,which i never think about it, never come to my mind, never have any imagination before.. really is nothing on my mind. With all those what i see ?? forget it !! now..i cover it all. I must more becarefull on my words,my attitude and many things.. i belive what i said to them before will come back to me. Really is hard for me in the begining.. before i make practise i felt so hot, not comfort and shy. But in the first day on Ramadhan 2007. I try to wear will all my faithfully heart. I was crying when i saw my face in mirror.. i never think that i will wearing right now.. Oh Ya ALLAH SWT, did im really ready for this.. or just ….?????? Did im ready with my attitude or i use this bcz my boyfriend “ koky “  want it ??? im on dilemma… Ya ALLAH… please give me your sign.. what is good for me..?I wont use is only for mask..i dont want like them who make my religion moslem looks so bad in front of others religion… and please make me ready for all. I really fight with my heart what i have to do.. sometimes i still want have fun ,wear my sexy dress again, have fun and manythings else. But i wearing your dress now.. i should be cover all my attitudes.. Please Ya ALLAH SWT.. give me power to keep faithfull with my heart, to keep good what you mention on your Holy AL Qur’an Hadist Rassullah SAW. I feel so bad, im feel so small and dirty fron of you. Im not better than them.Please Ya ALLAH SWt….i try to do it, i will do my best and i need your Ridho to do that….Amien

** To, other religions / nationality / and others who read my posting.. i realy sorry about my words. im not mention some name or something. Is not mean about some one or others, is not mean i making bad my own religion or what else..is just my share only…**   by Franya

Aduh so long i didnt write new post, busy, sick, and have no ide, and upset all come together in the same time.. I miss you all blogger and i miss to share what i had so far..ach.. really im too tired.

So many things is happening and i almost lost my control.. i just can praying to ALLAH SWT to give me more support and power to passing all the time.. From last posting i get sick and need rest for 2 weeks and i cant do much tings.. and i must sifthing my room accomodation to others room and working with so busy in the night as i got night sift and cant do anything more with my laptop,my mind so full and really too tired to talk about it…

My duty so busy with all guest check out and check in.. no much time for break and sleep enough.. the next day wake up and start again.. walah.. i felt like robot.. i miss my home but what to do.. i cant home rigght now.. and my time is next year..

but one things one i feel happy.. i meet many indonesian friends here and sometime we seat together and cooking our food and laughing.. is really help to relieve the stress of job.. they so funny expecially if we talk about others nationality.. ( they way they talk and attitude ) some how is funny for us and strange.. i think they also think we are strange too. but never mind…im enjoy to join them and relaxing.

now im back.. i want to say hello to all my friends in blogger and wish can get support of you and wish i can some more ide to talk again or do somemore posting..i miss you……

Liat tuh gambarnya.. nyam..nyam.. jadi pingin deh.. Aduh stelah 2 postingan sebelumnya hatiku sedih dan hancur berkeping ( lha kok kaya lagunya yuni sara aja ) Enggak hancur sich.. Just sad only and feeling lonely. Maklum Brownies aye lagi ngambek.. he..he..he Now time to come back with new spirit.

BTW.. BACK TO TOPIC DEH..

Kemarin aku sempat jalan2 ke salah satu shopping center di Bur Dubai.. Namanya Bur Juman Centre..wah agak elit juga sich tempatnya… So nice banget deh.. Ibaratnya kalau Jakarta yach PI Mall atau Galaxi Mall di Surabaya.. aku jalan2 keliling window shopping gitu ceritanya cari mangsa yang bisa di beli…. tapi duitnya kagak cukup.. waduh malu2in aja deh.. maklum orang kere masuk mall.. ya ndeso banget deh kelakuannya..hi..hi..hi..

Pas udah jam 3pm gak terasa nich cacing perut udah pada bangun and minta sesuap nasi kalee…ya okelah.. aku berhenti di sebuah restauran yang tulisannya “NOODLE HOUSE” wah wah ada indomie nich… eh bener aja .. waktu liat menu disitu ada beberapa yang masakan Indonesia..salah satunya sambal terong.. waduh makanan favorite ku deh.. sayang gak ada jengkol atau pete.. wah kalau ada bisa klop deh..
Aku panggil si embak… and pesan satu yang itu dengan super pedas…and 1 nasi putih and teh jeruk alias ice lemon tea bahasa linggisnya..
Tak selang berapa menit datanglah menu kesukaanku.. waduh.. nyam,..nyam.. kayak orang kelaparan ( emang sich ) i dont care with people around me, really i dont care
even is elite place ( liat aja gambar food courtnya ) and many elite people come there, wong aku wis lapar kok !!.. so what gitu loh… i eat with my finger as our traditional… waduh enak tenan.. lecker bo !! pedes tenan…. aku jadi ingat masakan mama di rumah.. mama suka banget masakin ini kalau aku pas balik ke Surabaya..rasanya dengan makan ini aku seperti pulang kampung. Bau trasi di sambalnya yang khas.. waduh.. mama where are you now..?? masakin lagi donk…
Even in my accomodation i can cook as my food but sometime im so lazy.. even my brownies is koky ( chef ) in 5* hotel but he will not cook at home.. at home is my time for cook. walah balik asal kodrat deh.. woman cooking at home kitchen. Even i have complete basic flafour alias bumbu dasar as my stock but lazy still won on my self.

Konon ada yang bilang dan kabarnya makan terong bisa bikin HOT dalal hal sex activitas.. ada juga yang bilang bisa bikin LOYO.. waduh bener tha ?? apa bukan sekedar sugesti aja tuh…? Ach cuek deh.. perut lapar gini kok sempat mikir yang begituan.. keburu ilang tuh sambalnya.. mau bener mau enggak biar blogger aja yang jawab… 

Finaly aku lahap semuanya bersih tak perlu dicuci lagi deh.. aduh dasar kampung banget.. waktu aku minta bill nya waduh… MAHAL BANGET BO !!! habisnya sekitar 50 dhs alias 120 ribu Rp. waduh mas.. harga segitu aku bisa beli terong sepasar,tak borong semua deh.. !!! tapi okelah.. untuk obat rindu mama,aku ikhlas ( walau masih sebal juga sich ).

Akhirnya aku batal deh beli sepatu dan tas baru.. semua habis untuk SAMBAL TERONG NYAM NYAM !!!! Akhirnya aku pulang dengan membawa terong dalam perutku…
kalau ada bloger yang masak tolong aku di kirimin aja deh.. biar aku ngirit dikit yach..yach..yach.. pleasesssssss
enjoy your SAMBAL TERONG at home….

TO YOU ” MAMA ” I MISS YOUR FOOD AND YOUR WARM HUGS

 Terlalu Indah tuk dilupakan,

Terlalu sedih tuk dikenangkan

Setelah aku jauh berjalan… engkau ku tingglkan

Betapa hatiku bersedih….

Mengenang kasih dan sayangmu

Setulus pesanmu kepadaku… engkau kan menunggu..

Andaikan kau datang kembali…. jawaban apa yang ku beri.

Adahkah jalan yang kau temui….untuk kita kembali lagi…

Nice melody and song from Ruth Sahanaya was in my Mp3.. i feel that my tears come to my face…oh that song really shoot my feeling at moment. I dont know what i should be..shall i crying or shall i screaming??? what i have to do now…????? tell me… tell me..

I lose my control, i lose my self on moment… i still remember you guy..and i still hope you guy. I know is impossible and i’m can not expecting anything from you.. i just ask little time but you never had time for me…..

Now my Mp3 play MY WAY from Frank Sinatra… Waduh… all is oldies song and make me more sad and want me cry…. My Way… yes.. this my way… i must go to my way and you go to your way.. Our ways is much different and cant be together. Just Miracle of God can be make it happen.Now where are you not even i know it. I just wonder why i must meet you and my feeling grow up to love you.. but why God wonts us be together..?? why always like this….???

Life is goes on… there is many thing still waiting for me and future. I cant just stop my feet and look at back all the time.. i must wake up and put strong feeling for next step what is will be happen.And not fall down again.. Failed is really good teacher for us to lear and learn and learn about life.. about love and about commitment. 

Dont stop your feet step and dont going back from your pass. Now and future is waiting for you. Be strong always….I wish on it.

for you  Farhan ” Koky” Khan

Cukup sudah aku mendengar katamu. cukup sudah aku mendengar ceritamu, cukup sudah aku berkata kepadamu, cukup sudah aku menelan derita ini.cukup sudah aku mengikuti langkahmu..cukup..cukup… cukup…

Aku ingin dalam diriku sendiri. aku ingin berjalan dalam langkahku, aku ingin berkata, aku ingin menjerit, aku ingin menangis, aku ingin semua yang ingin kulakukan…aku ingin…..

Dalam gelapku aku bersandar, dalam heningku aku merenung, dalam tangisku aku menjerit, dalam sakitku aku memohon.cukup….. cukup….. cukup…..

kenapa dia selalu menyakitiku.. kenapa dia selalu pergi dan datang seperti itu..?adakah waktu untuk aku bersandar kepadamu..? adakah secuil kata indah yang bisa kau ucap kepadaku..??? adakah waktumu untuk berbagi cerita dan dukaku???  tidak.. tidak.. you never have time for me..you always say no to me.. what ever i ask,what ever i want, did you care about it…? no..no.. NEVER YOU CARE AT ALL.  You never think about it and never want to know about what i feeling…..

Oh.. kapan deritaku berakhir…? kapan aku bisa berlabuh untuk selamanya dengan kenyamanan hati dan diriku? adakah tempat untuk diriku??? dan kenapa hatiku selalu tak kuasa menolak apa permintaanmu…. tak kah kau merasa perjuanganku dan perhatianku…? On my praying i always ask ALLAH SWT to bless you and safe you. I want you always be happy even my heart is broken….i can wish you belongs me,but is dreaming only..i wish always together with you is also dreaming only..you just want me if you want me.. but when is my turn to need you you never be here.Anyway im still here and will be there for you…..i wish i can do my best for you.

**  for you Farhan ” KOKY “  Khan

Sarung is name of traditional dress for mans. Not only in Indonesia but some people like Indian the also use sarung. They call also sarung.. for villages people in India. In Bangladesh they call LUNGGIE ( maybe im wrong on spelling ).In Malaysia also sarung as baju adat ( traditional dress) in Srilankan also have and the als call sarung.

Sarung is really comfortable to wear,for sleep, for praying and so relax. But now sarung not just mans wear, some female also use it. They making new style and modification and they wear on party and now many kind of sarung is coming up. Many lady now feel better wearing sarung on the party for partner traditional dress. not just jarik or gaun. I also use sarung sometimes when im sleep and warm and also when im praying to combine with our mukena ( praying dress ).

Every years my mom always giving sarung and some moslem dress for lebaran gift. and now insyaallah i continue and follow what my mom doing. My mom always tell me that sarung is our traditional man wear for praying and lebaran is the right time to giving gift to them.  

I dont know exactly from where is sarung coming from.. but i will say thank to the person who created sarung. It is really comfortable and nice on looking and wearing. The person should be get nobel for this.

sarung… sarung… sarung… sarung… sarung…. you are so beautiful and cute and realxing people who wearing you…. 

What do you know about Valentine??? Do you know about this story..where is come from and why is on February? What we known is Valentine is about love, kiss your lovely, heart, chocolate, teddy bear and roses on the red or pink wrapping.Okay i will let you know about this story…yuk ya yuk.. dongeng sebelum tidur sayang….

Suatu kala..(aduh bener kaya’ nenek mendongeng deh ) si nenek lampir datang membawa apel … lho kok itu khan dongen putri salju ???!!!! wah lagi error, maklum valentine sendirian …!! kasian amat deh !!! ok lanjutttttt……
One legend contents that Valentine was a priest who served during the third century in Rome. He name is Valentine. He was in the prison at the time ( tau deh kenapa ) and sending the letter “Valentine Greeting Card ” to him self. He was fall in love to young girl which always visit him in prison. And before his death it is alleged that he wrote her a letter which signed” from your valentine” Because of that Valentine became a legend and one of most popular in England and France.   

Other story is about cupid with love arrow, the son of Venus. This story most famous in our mind.. Is about the small kid who always bring arrow and bite to some one who sad and because that poison in the top arrow, the person became fall in love each others. So nice and Romantic yach.. ( mau dong aku di panah ama cupid )

So guys..are you ready for your valentine? what you will give to your partner..? flower/ chocolate/ card / ring with big diamond maybe or view number in bank account ?? Kalau yang itu aku mau dong daftar…he..he..he.. dasar materialistic..cewek gitu loh !! cowok juga ada he..he..( 50-50). lucky you if you have partner who will give you a gift.. for my share.. i never be celebrations valentine..just long time ago i got 14 pc roses from my boyfr. so nice and romantic.. but after that we break up… so sad deh. kasian deh elu..And please jangan cuma pacar aja but lovely can be your fam, your kids,your brother/sister or can be also your friendship.Lovely not mean only your boy or girlfriend. MOHON DI INGAT TUH !!!

Oh Valentine coming.. and i’m here alone as usually.nothing happen, time just passing without any celebrations,without any warm hugs and romantic moment. Will i get a gift from my lovely..?i want something but i cant say it and i cant ask for it.. i want is something from him self.. do you think he will give me something..? please deh.. or gift from all blogger yach… yach..yach..yach.. aku tunggu loh !!! tapi jangan pink yach.. huh not my fav colour loh. he..he..he..

happy valentine to you all, be my lovely friends always okay… I LOVE  YOU…  ( ceile )

ps : first story and pics taken by google.com   

Sale… sale….sale… oh my God.. that words always tempting me to see what is going on..? is good sale good price or just bullshit?????????

walah..walah.. I come in one of big shopping centre in Dubai,I saw many shop over big discount and big sale.. What is different big sale and discount?  i think is more less is same.There is showing many pamflet mention 50% off,up to 80% , last day get 75 % off. ya ampun so many low price and there is also some how good quality.Im not wondering that will many people look at this and will come to see and finally they will buy something.It’s always successful to finished stock on order and just make big sale, low price than people with come, see and buy. Really good strategi on sale of product.

But why people just come when is that shop have big sale / discount ? why is normal price is very limit visitor? Is because economic factor? just follow your friends to be same habit? ( alias ikut2an beli ) But some people doesnt want to come to shop which have low price. When i ask why, that person tell me..” for what i’ve to come.. i’ve money to buy even is not discount and some how they give discount because the quality is not really good. is just stock over ” walah.. walah ini orang sombong amat sih? amat aja gak sombong. Kenapa ada ya orang seperti ini di dunia…

Here also same, in Dubai at moment have Dubai Shopping Festival. All shoping centre have big sale, big discount. And really not just local people come and visit. There some people out side country the choose to stay few days only for making shopping here. walah.. walah.. Same Indonesian if there is in Singapore.. they will running and hunting there for shopping. Doesn’t matters for flight and viskal as long as can satisfied on shopping time and get it what ever you want for show your high style…wow… not wonder….When i can make shopping like this also..? MIMPI KALEE YE….?????????????? BOBOL BANK DULU AJA YEEE…….